first: noone ever gonna read them since its off the recent posts board by the time most of ppl go online and start to dig for something interesting..
second: at the end of the day theres always a reason to rant and you end up releasing all the negative feelings..
(providing your blog is not about what you cook today and its not your shopping list you share)
personally i got 52 hits so far whats sightly more than what ive expected..
and i bet its not the same group of ppl visiting every day..
admittedly i abuse this site and just use it to release bitterness.. that seem to be true..
im just a bitter pessimistic hypocitre prick anyways (thanks sarah, thats the exact definition)
sooo yeah.. ill either whine or just make no sense at all..
but first!
just a short 'thank you' bit..
it goes to..
1: unclefrank for the endless optimism
2: semau for the opportunity to rant a bit more and keep my brain used
3: katesharp for making me smile
they really worth reading..
but thats just my oppinion..
second:
i decided to pick troy desrtoy as the guitarist of 2007 for his performance on 'life is a grave and i dig it' album by nekromantix..
of course im sure noone on this site ever even heard about them but still..
and here comes the whining..
job interview today.. everythings fine, everythings perfect..
it goes surprisingly well.. its a good job and they like me..
and i wont get the job..
simply because i cant pay the deposit for the equipment i should use..
thats my luck..
[note: NEVER accept a part time job saying 'its better than nothing' ]
aaand maybe youve noticed ive mentioned someone earlier..
shes the one i am still madly in love with..
in spite of..
x4 cheat [whats exactly four reasons to break up with someone instantly]
numerous sleepless nights waiting just to see her arrive blind drunk barely able to speak
the disability to accept criticism and going offensive every time i want to discuss something i dont like
the fact ive moved just like 1000000 fuckin miles from home for her just to get kicked out in the very day ive arranged everything..
i just cant help it..
shes the exact opposite of me.. and it makes me feel whole..
forget the 'soulmate' bit.. this one feels x10 better..
and id pay any price to get over her. and even more to have her beside me again just for a second.
and valentines is here in a few days. scares me to death. thats the most awful day ever.
ah well.
dont tell me im pathetic. i know.
not like i care..
and with another 2500 characters i really dont seem to be silent at all..
i hate to contradict myself.
take care.
xx