ok.. i tried my best..
looks like i just forgot how to do it..

so i was just standing there trying to force myself make a step and say something clever/good/cool
or just something like.. hi..
or anything just open your f..king mouth..
nope..
she got off the bus..
damn..

yeah.. maybe its a skill you can forget..
i wonder if theres a way to refresh it without goin thru the humiliation of puberty when you have to learn it..
[and you are not supposed to forget it.. ever..]
but how the hell is it possible?
next time i forget how to breath or walk?! arghhh.....

but hopefully its just not my day 'fingers crossed'..

god ive not felt this stupid and pathetic for ages..

ok im admitedly bad at this..
im bad at everything where im supposed to speak..
but this was just way too much..

i have to do something about it..
but first i have to figure out what..

honestly.. have you ever heard about anything like this?
i swear i could do it..
i wasnt f..king supposed to forget it..
i wasnt f..king supposed to be like this..

arghhh..

maybe i should consider suicide.. lol..

ah well..
at least now you can all point your fingers and laugh at me..
have fun.. lol..

take care..