sooo
me blog lacks posts lately..
life got a bit too fast..
and once again this post will contain randomness only...
first of all..
i feel like a moral zero..
i cant handle the fact that im with someone i do not love..
i like her.. alot.. and i really appreciate her support and im really glad shes there for me..
but its not what i used to have.
and i feel like a liar because i just like her and shes nuts about me..
and every time me ex is online (the only way i could talk to her except phone)
i still have me stomach in knots..
secondly..
ive decided to start playin bass again..
on me way home i was listening to some of me fav bands and i couldnt stop slapping the bass line on the stap of me bag..
the funny bit was where some ppl around me started to move to the rythm..
and mr freeman is still amazing..
(yes.. psychobilly and punk.. ive got a history.. lol. dont ask.. 
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oh..
and i desperately need hols..
and me company is not too willing to pay..
just to make me days better..
ah well..
take care..
If I were you I'd hang on to what you've got with your new girlfriend , appreciate and 'make the most of' it for the forseeable future , but then obviously I'm not you and you'll do what seems best for you , though if considering ending it I'd think very carefully about that before deciding to , all the best , - martin .