great.. almost 3am and im still awake.. i wish id have normal sleeping habits.. hehe..
sometimes it would be so much easier being normal..
being a freak really is tiring.. 
anyways..
i know im not a "blogger" type, im just not one of those who can fill pages of their diaries every night.. and honestly im all right with that..i just dont feel the need.. what i cant get is how come i can never write anything when i decide it is time to do so for purely recreational purposes..
its not that i cant think about anything since im simply unable to stop thinking and analyzing myslef and the world around.. maybe its just that i dont know where to start and how to put random thoughts in line to make it look like something thats got something in common with making sense.. (if that makes sense..)
but thats too easy to be a proper answer..
another strange thing is its impossible to think of an id without numbers to use as email..
you know that bit before the @..
gonna have to register somewhere so i need a new email.. why cant i use one of my already existing ones? i dont want another email.. it takes ages to check them all..
and if i get over that i still cant create a proper one just the likes of [something]75@ or [random word/name]92@ etc what is quite pathetic.. i think.. 'would suit you perfectly' i hear you say and to be honest there is a point..
but come on let the freaks have proper email at least especially when they are forced to get one..
also..
should try to post something when im in a good mood..
i wonder if its ever gonna happen..
take care..