so here i am, bored and broke on a fcking friday night when i should be out somewhere having the time of my life..
well annoyed..
thank god i had some hidden booze.. boy ill be sorry in the morning..
whats strange about this is when i was a teenager i knew nothing about hangover..
i could drink as much as i wanted and woke up with a smile in the bushes or in the middle of the footy pitch..
but now i can feel ill in the morning if i didnt even got drunk.. weird..
maybe i should change my drinking habits..
as for my plans for the future someone just managed to ruin them.. well not completely.. but once again theres sand in the mechanism..
the guy rang me today to ask about my employment status and plans for the future.. and just as if hed be talking about the weather mentioned hes gonna run a team next year and there might be a place for me.. as if it would be something unimportant.. well thanks alot..
thats the second quasi-offer i have for next year for an entire season including pre-season tests and some additional races.. fcking brilliant..
what is the problem?
well i had an offer like that for this season aswell.. thats why im no longer in london..
and thanks for the financial mess thats why im unemployed..
and ive just made up my mind and decided ill be back to london ASAP..
and now i wonder..
on one hand i have london and decent wages (IF i get a job)and loads of fun, on the other hand i have two offers for RACING (and theres nothing id love more) but significantly less money and no privare life (since they wouldnt pay enough yet so id have to have a part time job too)
and right now im sure whatever i do im gonna make the wrong choice and im gonna regret it..
(hey, thats something ive heard before.. how interesting..)
seems like theres nothing new in life.. its just the same fcking script again and again with different people playing different roles.. got a good script? well done good for you, now fck off and enjoy it elsewhere.. got a bad one? join the cub..
the interesting scripts are never for comedies anyways..
oh btw books..
i have to stop reading books and watching films.. i get carried away or i have to face the worst bits of my life..
both stops me actually doing something about it.. i mean my life..
but there are so many things to do, to try, to get, to go for and i dont want to be paralyzed ever again..
aaaaand i desperately need social life..
and some more booze..
its not my day..
fck it..